Sunflowers

I was grumpy today. Honestly, I was only grumpy towards KC.

Here's my story - When I woke up this morning (for the 50th time), I was being pushed off my side of the bed. Cayna has taken a liking to cuddling with Daddy in the middle of the night (she knows I'll just take her back to her own bed). It would be cute if I didn't lose my sleeping space (our bed is only full size). Anyway, I know I shouldn't get upset with something so trivial - one of these days she'll be all grown up and won't want to cuddle anymore. But seriously, I need a little sleep (or I'm miserable). So, that did not start the day well because I blamed him for not putting her back in her OWN bed.

After that (yes, there is more), I was going to get some things accomplished this morning while Cayna was at preschool - one task was to mow the lawn. KC informed me that he used all the gas! I didn't overreact (which is hard for me sometimes), but I wasn't real happy. I know, you're thinking - just go get some more, but I'm on a limited budget and I had planned it just right that I would be able to finish up the lawn. It's frustrating when you have something planned and it doesn't work out.

To continue - KC was out in our woods (cutting up firewood) and he put a log through the back window of the truck... It was an accident and he assures me that he did NOT throw the wood. But when he came back to the house, the first words out of his mouth were 'are you in a good mood or bad?' How would you react? I didn't yell, but man - what a mess! To give KC credit, he cleaned out the entire truck and 'fixed' the window. And it isn't like he did it on purpose!

This evening, as I was pondering all that occurred, I decided that none of it really matters in the larger picture, does it? And my attitude really stunk towards my husband. I'm not taking any of this 'stuff' with me when I die - and I better enjoy my time with my daughter and my husband while I can because tomorrow isn't promised to me. And if I don't get something done, maybe it wasn't meant to be done today anyway.

To end my day today... there is a severe weather alert in Upstate New York for tonight - Heavy Frost. And all I could think of was EVERYTHING still in the garden, including all the sunflowers. That made me remember something in a magazine I was reading a couple days ago -

Sunflowers, at one time, were considered a symbol of adoration, possibly because it follows the path of the sun as it travels across the sky. The sunflower is the perfect example for us to follow the Son of Man and to grow in His love and presence. And that made me realize that every single day is precious. And it isn't going to go how I want it to or by my schedule. Things happen, life happens and if I stay committed to my plans, I miss following the plans God has for me. I adore my God, but I sometimes forget to follow Him in HIS plans when He is moving and I miss things. I don't know what I missed today, but thank you God, for your beauty in nature (for your sunflowers) and reminding me of your mercy and your love. Tomorrow, I'll try to do better!

And KC - I love you and I'm sorry for not being more understanding to all that happened to you today! You did a great job handling it all (and you're a GREAT daddy).